From the definition above, I am partially agree with. In nowadays, university has been commercialise. More and more universities and colleges has been built up recently. Thus, this has resulted students have more opportunity to proceed to further study. It was a good thing that there are so many colleges and universities. Yet, thing has turned to the other side when the university has  become commercialise. A business. The educator just tend to make money than provide quality education.

Basically, the universities in Malaysia do not provide quality education, they provide grade. What do we get from a university? Knowledge? Bullshit. We only get grade from the university. What can we get from the grade? The answer is job. A better paid job. In the end, it still about money.

Who cause this to happen? It is society.The idiots corporations. They wants A’s students. Because A’s students represent they are smart. It was right. But that was 10 years ago. Because of today’s society is so realistic, people need a degree to get a job. Because there is a demand, there must be someone who will stand out to supply and make money.

This is the factors that the numbers of university in Malaysia growth rapidly. That also lead to lousy education. As long you get a degree, you can work. You do not have to understand all these because you just need a degree. Therefore in today’s university, we only “study” and not learning new things.

Why? Because the numbers of students is too big. Few hundreds of students in a class. How to study? No need study. They have made it simple for you to understand. Worse come to worse you just memorise it and you will pass your exam. That the today university standard.

The assignment.exam are not to be discussed. What we know is just a grade. Next will be same as Master… That the future of our education…

Just had a friend talk not long ago. He told me that he fell in love with a girl. But the problem she already has a boyfriend. For me this is quite a serious problem. And also the situation I scare the most if happened on me. Fall in love in someone who already has boyfriend is one of the worst condition. Because the chance for you to get her, we can say is 1%. Why 1%? The 1% is actually come from she break up with the boyfriend. But after breakup your chance to get her is not high as well. Therefore more accurate is 0.5% chance for you to get her.

The second worse condition is where the girl already has someone she likes. This condition you still have 10% of chance to tackle her. The chance is come from the guy she likes might has girlfriend or she just admire him and they don’t know each other. In this condition, it will depend how you do to grab her heart. Your effort must be triple or more than other people. And you must have the desire to take failure which will occur not more than 1.

That all for today. Let start my final boost. Bye.

Yesterday was a special day as well. Everytime only on this period of time my phone will ring for more than 10 times. I will receive the new year bless from my friends and also some contact who I don’t know the number. Weird right? Haha.

But, today I had an uncomfortable lunch. Today lunch was provided by company. The lunch was Nasi Briyani. I went out with my supervisors to buy the lunch. So when I got there, I requested my fried chicken changed to curry chicken. I was felt lucky for being out with them so I could pick what I like. But things did not turn out as I wished when one of my colleague asked me could she has the curry chicken same as mine. I felt sorry for her that I was being selfish. This had bothered me for the whole day. I really hoped I could make choice again. Than I would follow the majority. But at least I have learned something today. Tomorrow will have another free lunch and I shall not repeat the same mistake again. Hope I will be forgiven by the colleague.

Happy Chinese New Year

Today is a rainy day. The rain started before I went to work. It rained till evening around 4 pm. The new year is coming, it is not suppose to be a raining season. It would be hot and windy. As Chinese New Year is known as ” Chun Jie” which is the end of winter and the beginning of spring season. And also known as the beginning of the year. But the weather has changed. No New Year wind blowing around but just rain. Is it because of the year of tiger or it is because year of rabbit? Or it is because the climate change? In scientific the only we could explain the changes is the climate change. If it is because the climate change, do we (human) realize it? I do not think so. The prophecy of end of the world in 2012 will in be true? I do not think is a prophecy. It is just that someone has foresee the future and he or she knows that we (human) will destroy the mankind with our own hands- by polluting the earth, wars against each other.

Above is my thought about the weather. What happened today was, someone had stolen my newsweekly. It really spoiled my mood when I was having my lunch. I big loss for me that I just read half way on that magazine. Meanwhile all the day, I was just slept because I really felt sleepy for the whole day.

After back to work, just bought 2 packs of snacks and finish it while watching the Bakuman. Then go for a hair cut before took my dinner. I had a late dinner today, because of the hair cut. New Year is coming so must cut my hair and shave. Traditional must be followed as it is the culture. I guess!!!

Who do I race with? I always like to race with the best of the best. I like to use my “talent” to beat them. But the result is- I lost everytime. I still stay on how I suppose to be. Never change. Never study hard and change myself to win the race.

Who is my biggest enemy? The answer is me, myself. I am the biggest enemy for myself. When I was in primary school, I always want to be number 1. I want to be attention in school. I want everyone to know me. Even now still the same. Haha.. Is really hard to change somebody who has the attitude for so many years.

But to frankly speaking, what is life really is? Still have no specific answer for this. It just like why you like hot and spicy and why do you like original flavour. Is all on your own perspective.

My CIM assignment. Why do I worry about it? All this because the due date is coming yet I have done nothing yet. How this could happen? Still last minute work. I hate the feeling. But still like to do thing last. Never learn from mistake.

Second worry is money. All this because of the school fees. CIM and UCSI fees are coming. Worry will be too burden to my parents. Just worry worry and worry. If keep worry bout today how to make it for tomorrow. Even I understand this but, the worry still there.

Third worry is bout the tuition job. Now I am considering to continue or not. Not really happy to work there. Besides, I have no enough time to study after I take the tuition. Now I have known my limit. There is a limit for me.

I really feel blur now when think of my future. Don’t know how will it be. Then indirectly it become a stress for me. Please, give me a direction. Tell me where to go.

I thought it will be an easy going semester, but thing happen on the other way. This semester is one of the toughest semester I ever have. But all this because I want to and I have changes this semester. But not on my expectation yet. At least I have made my first move.

The changes is because my last semester experience. My MA2 has taught me a lesson. The other is because of my friends in UCSI. They help me a lot in my changes. Because now i have people to study with. Thanks to CK , Da Shao, Joey, Jason, Queen, Kok Meng, Alvin, Ken, Bee Loo, Jaddinee, Men Chun who have studied with me. Especially Queen and Da Shao, they have helped me a lot in my International Business subject. Even some are not taking the same subjects with me, but their companions mean a lot for me. I learn this from last semester and this semester. Is fun to study and know them. Hope will continue the fun next semester.

In this semester I only focus on my IB and not focus on the CC. So, I hope that my CC final will be able to pass. Even this semester is one the stress semester but this is also one of my happiest semester. I have achieved my objective even it is just 50%.

This semester, I did not finish my assignment in last minute. This is what I always ask myself to do in every semester but never made it. This semester I have done it. Even though the work was not that good. But at least there is changes. Next semester I will keep it up and change my working attitude. I feel sorry to my group member that made them feel like they did not contribute much on the IB assignment. But I really thanks for you guys support me when we were doing assignment. This was the first time I do assignment with friends. It is really fun and enjoyable. I will to do better next time in group assignment.  Thanks to CK and Edward who have given me very good advice on how to deal with group assignment.

I would like to thank to CK for his help on helping me do the alignment. The assignments that I have done in this semester were the best I have ever done. I have learn a lot in this semester when worked with CK, Edward, Shy Chuan, Kok Meng and Da Shao ( MP assignment). I do not think I will learn that much in my work place. I really benefit a lot from them. Hope will meet a second chance to learn as well in next semester.

Another achievement of mine is, I do not have to study overnight in last minute before exam. Even it only happen on my IB, I still studied last minute on my CC. But, I will not give up and try to make it better next semester. I did not prepare for my IB before exam and my mind at that time was very calm. I really enjoy the moment I watched Naruto. I have made it and I will keep it next semester. Do what I want before exam.

I really thanks to my friends who support me and be with me during my stress time. Thanks to you guys. I almost changed to another guy. Almost became a mark base guy. This is not what I want to be. All because of the IB. But I have returned to my own self 3 days before exam. A playful and not a mark concern guy. Always be who I am. Hope my friends will not hate me because of my idiots attitude. But, that is what I want to be.

This story is about a crow who is envy the white birds. Crow is black and people don’t like black as the believe black carries bad luck. Besides, in fairy tail stories crow is the pet that feed by bad people. Therefore, eventually crow gives a bad impression to people. People will chase it away when sees it. Throw stone to it. Yet, not only human dislikes crow, the birds dislike it as well. So, the crows are all live together and not mix with other group.

Therefore, there is a crow who like to change its fate. It thinks of why doesn’t he change into the white species of bird instead of just stay what it is now?  So, he fly, fly and fly to find solution to changes it colour into white. One day, he found a painter is painting a building with a white paint. Without think twice, he dip himself into the paint. And it is work. He manage to change himself into a white crow.

After he turn into white, he really thought his likability will increase. He fly to white birds group. He wants to hang with them and leave his old clan. But when he approaches the white birds nest, he isn’t being welcome by them. The white birds are chasing him away. And say that” you are crow, even you are white. You are not a part of us. Back to your own crow family. Go away, we don’t like you.” So he leaves the group and goes to the city searches for food. He thought that people will like him when he is in white. But thing happens on the other way. When people see him, they feel shock to see a white crow and chase him away. No body wants white crow. In the end, he flies back to his family. But, when the crows see him, they chase him away as well and say: ” this is the place for crow, not for you white bird. You are not welcome, get out of here” So now he has become a stray white bird that belong to no body. No one likes him, no one accept him, no one welcome him. Till the end of his life, he just a lonely white crow.

In this story, you can view it in different perspective. Since I am talking about racist issue, I will relate it into the issue. As I am the Chinese in Malaysia, I will use Malaysia Chinese as example.

The white crow in the story just like my ancestor. He would like to has new life in foreign country. Because that time China was in chaos. Corruption in the Qing dynasty government. People lived in fear. So, at that period of time many Chinese have migrated to others countries for support their family. Most of the Chinese were went to other countries as a miner. In Malaysia was as a tin miner.This is just a short brief about how Chinese come to Malaysia.

The reason the Chinese came here by being tricked. Most of the Chinese came here as a coolie. We came here because the local lazy and didn’t want to do all those mining hard work. And at that period of time, China has skilled in mining. So, I assume that we were asked to come for the mining industry.

When we came to Malay State (the name of peninsula before Malaysia is form), we not only made money for own and sent back to China. What we did in here indirectly developing the country economy. But, were the contribution appreciated? I guess no.

It is already more than 100 years Chinese leave in Malaysia. Or I should say since the emperor of Melaka, Princess Hang Li Poh married to the sultan of Melaka. There is also rumor spread around that the Four Melaka Warriors were Chinese, they are Hang Tuah, Hang Jebat, Hang Likur and Hang ( I ve forgotten ). Anyway it is just rumor, not have been proven yet.

Anyway, above about a short brief of how Chinese came to Malaysia. And for now, what we shall concern is present. Back to the white crow story, can the white crow back to his crowd? No, he has been eliminated from his family. This apply to us who has been far away from China.

Here, is a story of mine on how the China people look on the Malaysian Chinese. In my work place I meet a lot of China people who come for visit. There was an old China Lady asked me how the life in Malaysia. I said not bad. Later I was surprised by her words. What she said was, the Chinese in here are live in high standard of life. don’t need to work and can enjoy life in here. Not only her think that, I’ve met quite a lot of China people who think like that.

Below is the story of my grandma when she visited her China relative. When she got there, she was treated like a “water fish”. She paid for all the expenses on those days she visited. Is that the way we treat our relative or guest? That is because in most of their mind, Chinese in Malaysia are rich. Once, I’ve heard from the conversation between my mum and my grandma. The conversation was about the letter from a far relative from China. The content was asked us to finance them in build their new house. What does that mean? Are we here who live in Malaysia are money tree for them?

So, can the Malaysian Chinese return to China? The answer is no. The way we live are different. We have been used to this place. This is the place we born and been raised up. So it is not fair to ask us leave.

It is nothing wrong to ask the Chinese back to China, but before say that please think about the feeling of being chase away.  If you want to chase us back to China, please do it back to 100 years ago. Not now. You should stop the crow from change into white crow, not kill him after he changed into white bird.

To all the people around the world, please take the white crow story as your reminder. Do not racist on other race in your country. Not their fault to be in your country. All these are the mistake that made by our ancestor.

Your ancestor should chase the outsider away from entering your country. But, because of the uselessness of ancestors the outsider were asked to work in other country. (not apply in every country, certain country)

Next, the people should be blamed is the ancestors who migrated to other countries. Why cant you endure the poor situation? Why????

In the nutshell, there is not conclusion in the story and this racist issue. It has been existed for more than 1000 years.